Adoption update

This is the part of the process where there isn't alot of news to report everyday. Our caseworker is sending us a hardcopy of our completed homestudy. It's been in Korea for two months now but we don't expect to hear anything at all for another 8-10 months. (at least) SO, the most exciting thing going on in this journey is that Seoul-daddy and I are going downtown to the big city to get our fingerprints made for Homeland Security.
We were also invited to an official 'Waiting Family' dinner, which we were unable to attend, so we are really 'in this'.

Someone asked me the other day what it feels like to 'wait'. On some days it feels like any other day..I go on with my life, take care of my kids, plan for the future, etc. But every once in a while random emotions sneak up on me like a stealth bomber during wartime. Nervousness. Anxiousness. Over-excitedness. Impatience. Fear.

Yes, those emotions do come to the surface while you are waiting. Those emotions are real.

I deducted the other day that if I had been physically pregnant, I would have had a baby by this point in the process. WOW. So there is the aspect that because I'm not physically pregnant, life is just cruising along. It's hard to plan, hard to decorate a nursery, hard to prepare for much of anything without a referral. And when you don't have a picture in hand or the latest, greatest news from your agency, people tend to cruise right along in life with you. Some days I wonder if we are actually adopting! And with that, as we are wrapped up in the family that we have NOW, I wonder the questions that people are often afraid to speak outloud..Will this baby gel with our family? Will I love it like I love my other two children? What if it doesn't bond to us? What if it does..too much? What if we're biting off more than we can chew?...those are the 'fear' questions. Ninety-nine percent of the time, these things aren't brought up because you don't want to scare anyone or give the impression that you have doubts. I'm just being honest.

But during those times, or shortly thereafter, God always seems to give me a glimpse that everything will be fine. This is all in His plan. I had similar feelings when I was pregnant with each of my children. It is more a fear of the unknown than a fear of what we have decided. And I will bank on the fact that fear does not come from Him. Ever!

So adoption is a road and as a family, we are learning to navigate and experience every twisty curve. What has been shown to us so far has been a faith-builder in and of itself..we can only count on it to continue to be!
Please continue to pray for us as we get a little closer to bringing our Seoul-baby home.

Happy Weekend everyone!!